Sunday, June 21, 2009

To #123, 124, 125


A quick entry before i book in...

Nah its ok whether u know 1 or all of my secrets. I dont really have alot of them anyway. My life is quite open, i dont like to hide stuff. Whats hidden are well... secrets.

Its nice and sweet of you to keep reminding me that i have the special access to your inner self. I admit it may get boring at times as it may be the same few things for days in a row. However i remind myself that being on the receiving end is also a blessing... and that was something i wasnt able to do properly in the past when i had the chance...

Rude to me? Did u?

I think the movie today has really stirred up my thoughts. I bet there are many things that i would redo if i had the chance. Or simply just know what the other party has been thinking all this time. Just put yourself into connor's shoes Mich, although u may not be able to travel through time, but u should be able to appreciate your past, present and future.

After all somethings u got to learn and experience yourself... if u dont get near the fire u definitely wont get burnt, but u will be cold forever. Just like in the movie, being a lonely ghost of yourself.




p.s. The quote that hit me was the 1 when Brad was talking to Jenny when she was cleaning up the cake. He told her that 'She didnt really break up, what she did was she just suppressed her feelings. The only way to let go is to find someone else that she loved more'. Cant remember the exact words, but this should be it.

Infrit was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 9:25 PM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

#125 Realisation and self doubt


I realised something suddenly..

I can't deny the fact that I'm a rather cold person..

I don't know how to show concern for others.. I don't know how to take care of others.. Seriously I don't even know anything about my friends.. I'm so damn bloody self-centred.. Everything revolves around me me me..

If I don't know how to take care or show concern for my friends.. How am I supposed to even know how love someone then.. I'm really doubting my ability to be able to love someone..

I'm so sorry for being so cold and self-centred.. But I really don't know how to express my concern.. That is something that I have to learn..

Sorry..

我没有资格去爱别人。。我不会再轻易喜欢上任何人了。。

Anonymous was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 6:57 PM

#124


Just want to say something...

Thank you so much for providing me with so much advices whenever I sms you.. I know it's really silly and childish of me to sms you stuff with the same contents everyday..

I know it must have been really irritating to you.. Having to repeat your words again and again.. Every single day..

So sorry about bugging you so much..

And I'm sorry for being rude and impatient to you that time.. It has still been on my mind though it has been quite some time already.. I'm very sorry..

Thanks for being there for me.. =)

Anonymous was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 10:53 AM

Thursday, June 18, 2009

#123


Hey Eric, I realised that you know like all of my secrets and I dont know any of yours! Quick!! Share some secrets with me!! And I'm not asking nicely.. I'm demanding you to share!!! =X








Damn tired~ I feel so drained.. Too much fatigue accumulated le.. Must sleep early.. Stop my late nights!! No more pet society~ =(







我再也不要轻易地喜欢上任何人了。。

Anonymous was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 10:31 PM

Friday, June 05, 2009

No... not again :(


Took off today to rest at home.. Has been quite a fun week actually in camp. So seldom that everybody is back and sticking together for all the lessons and such.

We had a games session yest, and i was quite enthu about it. After all, my knee was pretty much more or less recovered... or so i thought. It was such a long time that i last touch a basketball!

I guess my enthu got the better of me... i actually went to join in a game... and when i scored the opening basket, i landed on my injured leg and it gave way. I had to stop and hop off the court.

The pain was still as excruciating, but it was not as painful as the first time. Its like when u sprained the area once, the area will be more prone to sprains. But now.. i have alot of answering to do. I really regret participating... **** what was i thinking?

The physio sessions all leading to today to strengthen my leg has been put to waste. I'm so sorrie pheonix... I hope we dont have to start from ground zero. The only consolation is that its only a light sprain with no swelling.

I'm so terribly sorry and regretful...

Infrit was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 8:56 PM