I first stalked saw him when I was 15.. hmmm.. Was he only 10 or 9 that time?!! Oh god!! I'm such a pervert!!!!!!!!!!!!! >_<
I'm damn weak at this!! I want to eye contact with him and smile at him so badly but I will look away whenever our eyes meet!! I can't help it!!
And I confirm the guy that I met downstairs when I was going to ntuc with my mum is him!!
I thought he looked extremely familiar and took a second look.. I very long nv see him liao plus he keep changing his hair colour and specs.. I was attracted to that brown hair.. Lol..
Our eyes met and I thought I saw the corner of his mouth go up briefly!!
I thought it's him!! I asked my mum did she see him?!!! Is it him??!! But she nv see him pass by.. She was looking at a little girl instead.. Oieee! Wrong focus!! Lol..
What is he laughing at? Oh no!! Did he realise that my eyes are stalking him whenever I see him?! And I think that he is very cute?! I mean I spy for close to 10 years already somehow he will sense it? Lol!
Or is he laughing at my Luffy tee?! Why laugh at Luffy! Luffy is cute! :)
Or it is because I grew fatter?! :(((
Now I'm 发花痴-ing when I recall his smile just now.. Oh man...............
I really need courage to look at him in the eye and smile!! I'm positive he knows my existence!! :D
#286
Please give me the courage and strength that I need from next week onwards..
I feel more and more nervous as the day draws near.
Thank you!
Major Updatezzz
Rounding up my internship, it was really a great experience. Looking back I'm really glad to join this internship programme. Though it has its bitter moments, but now I have a better knowledge of the banking industry. Besides, through this internship, I have expanded my social circle and met a great (and crazy) bunch of friends. This is a rare opportunity to know people from the other local university. I also got to network with some of the experienced and veteran staff in the industry and tap on their advices.
She was not the most attractive girl from day 1. However in my eyes, she has stood out from the rest of the female interns. I took notice of her when we were doing the lion dance activity which was the second week of our internship. Though she is a very quiet girl, her gentle actions and positive attitude has resounded and embedded herself in my mind. That prompted me to know her better and before I know it... I have fallen for someone this simple and innocent. Though we are 2 years apart, she is very open and receptive to my world, even if it means adapting to me, learning new things and discussing "new" topics. She has taken alot of initiative and I'm thankful that she has put in so much effort into her first relationship. All these show that I have made the right choice in making her the lady of my life.
And............ Hopefully snag a boyfriend, the idea sounds great but then again. I'm a cranky short fuse. Better not let the guy dig his own grave. =D
HAHAHA!! no la! Just think that what he say is so corny and 经典！the creator of this game must be a pro kia or hopeless romantic like me.. Haha!
And her clothes all very fashionable and nice!
PS: you nv see wrongly.. Her top is translucent top.. Lol! ;)
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Ryeowook ah.. Give me strength and courage please.. :(
Some more we hold hands and walk around like children going out for excursion! Haha!
She asked me why I still don't have a boyfriend yet. She's scared that I might become a lonely old woman huh? Lol..
I don't know. I just haven't met the right one yet and I have no wish to commit to anyone or anything right now.
How do you know it really is love and not 一时的意乱情迷?
I know that life is not like a story in a comic or drama. Those so called love at first sight are always fake, you have to get to know a person more to know if he is suitable. Relationships can't sustain only on love, it requires both parties to maintain it.
But how long can love last anyway? I guess one day it will die out. How do you know it's still because of love and feelings for each other that you are still together and not out of habit? I don't know and don't want to trouble myself thinking of all these yet.
Life is full of "what ifs". So far, I have not met anyone that I want to know better. So just let nature take it's course and let me focus on earning my old age money first. =)
Recently I am becoming quite a spendthrift. I spend unnecessarily and I have taken a liking to dine at restaurants. Argh! Must stop my bad habit and nip it in the bud! =(
And yeah, I will try not to be so cheapskate again and treat him to only sugarcane juice at the hawker centre downstairs.
But he's forever so nice, rejecting me when I said I must treat him because he always helped me with no conditions plus he lives so far away but still bothers to come all the way to my house to help me. And it always ends up having him treat me instead! =(
I'm really so blessed to know him.
I really must say this:
Some people go IRC and meet all sorts of the wrong kind but I was so lucky!
The very first guy that I met from IRC and he was a good guy. I never met up with any other online people anymore after him. I was scared that I might meet the wrong kind. Lol.
I know his school work is very hectic, hope he will be able to have some time for me.
Sugarcane juice. :)
Today is one of my primary school best friend's birthday.. My best friend and my first "official" crush(Lol).. Perhaps he has already forgotten about me..
One fine day, we were told there was an overseas transfer student that will be joining our class. Seriously, he was the hottest guy in class! Loads of girls swoon over him.. Always asking him who he likes etc.. Last time primary school still got ranking sia..
Ahem! He rank number 1 on my list of course.. From the moment I set my eyes on him.. Pri 4 to Pri 6 I think.. Or was it Pri 3? I can't remember when he transferred in already! It's been more than 10 long years! And there was no number 2 or 3 after him okay.. =)
I don't know if he still remember this but he told me that I rank number 2 on his list.. ROFL! When I heard it I was like super happy, like floating already but still must act disgusted in front of my girl friends to save face.. So stupid!! So childish!! =(
Number 1 is this super chio bu that even I also secretly admire for her beauty.. LOL!! Thinking of those childish days now is putting a smile on my face.. Haha!
We used to write to each other.. Send each other cards.. Even though now he's on my fb, we have never talked to each other.. I guess cultural differences and no topics to talk could be why we have drifted apart..
After he returned to his country, we sent each other cards still.. Until I can't remember when.. All of these just stopped..
I wish time could turn back to my primary school days.. I would have cherished this friendship more and made more efforts to continue it..
And of course I will not try to save face and act disgusted anymore! I will definitely confess that I liked him too.. Hehe! =)
Dearest "Kangaroo"............
Do you still remember me? I still remember you..
Love,
"Monkey"
I'm okay.. I'm alright.. Just suddenly feeling a little emo today.. The feeling of a lost friendship.. =(
Ah.. This must be what will happen when you get old and start to reminisce about the past.
Oh my.. I missed him too much.. Hehe!
Oppa! I won't abandon you! Don't worry.. =)))
And I am actually kinda pissed with his attitude..
He didn't ask me what movie I wanted to watch and he already bought a horror movie that he wanted to watch! I meant I said anything but you should ask me what movie to watch what! Basic courtesy!
Then I just said that I don't want horror movie! Then he start to say what "I will be alongside you la I not going to abandon you there" and what "there should be a first time for everything, live life as it is and stare at your fear in the eye" then what "I say till like watching horror movie is a matter of life and death which obviously is not".
I just say I dun want to watch horror and he must shoot me with so many things! I where got say life and death matter!
And I already very give face le.. I hate going to the movies cause I'm afraid there might be seat bugs! I rarely watch movies! If I said that he surely gonna shoot me with I dunno what again!
Damn! I can't stand his MCP attitude seh! Zzz!
Now must think what to bring that will enable me to check my things for bugs easily.. Definitely I'm thinking of not bringing a bag.. But must bring money and phone and tissue paper.. Hmmmmmmm.. Must find some clothes that got big enough pockets that I can stuff them in and I don't need to bring bag..
I don't deny that I'm paranoid over the bugs thing but you can't blame me! Once bitten twice shy!