I'm reading those damned romance novels and I'm having doubts.

The female and male characters would forever described as keep on looking at each others' eyes and act or feel as if the world only belonged to the both of them.

Is this really possible?

Even if it is possible........ I don't think I can stand the staring. I'd get rather self-conscious after a few seconds. Haha!

I always like to say stuff like "I want to die!" "I don't wanna live!" "活着很辛苦！" "Faster die better!"

But how to die when I love to drink birds nest, lingzhi cracked spore or whatever its English term is.. 灵芝孢子粉 is the Chinese name. Lol. And other various Chinese 补品 that I find so very delicious. Hahaha!

Actually... I can't die and refuse to die yet! I have yet to watch SS4, touch wookie's hand -- I started liking kyu a lot more after ss3 cuz I managed to grab his hand and we had eye contact. I can still remember clearly the question mark in his eyes when I didn't madly grab his hand the second time he walked past shaking hands. I was busy trying to see if wookie was gonna walk over. Haha! I shouldn't have done that.. I would have another chance to touch kyu again. I think the way I held his hand like �他的手 part sorta gave him a deep impression? Haha! But! It was unintentional!! I just wanted a firmer hold as I was jostled back by other younger girls in front and was losing balance and hold on him too.. Haha.. Old already is often weaker.

Till now when I recall this memory, I still find it rather amusing and sweet. Heh..

Of course, I must stay alive to watch all the SS and my baby going to enlistment and how he will go in the entertainment industry.

And of course, I have yet to find my handsome prince charming so all those talk of dying is just rubbish, bullshit, nonsense blah blah. Haha!

And so weird. I saw one of SJ's A-CHA perf on inki and the moment I saw kyu, Edward Cullen popped into my head.

I don't know why. I guess cause he's very fair? Lately, I find him more and more attractive. Haha!

Wookie is still my number 1 though. Haha!

I just finished reading Breaking Dawn and seriously, I can't bear to know that I've finished reading on Edward and Bella's love story.

I could read on forever!

Argh. I really missed reading how they fiercely loved each other.

How they knew they were meant to be with each other.

How the other will not survive if either one of them died.

How they met. -- The very deciding factor that made me crazed over this novel.

I absolutely adored the way they met and made contact, even though ed treated bella badly at first with all those rude glaring etc -- don't ask me why I adored that. I'm not sadistic. I just don't know why I loved that bit. Perhaps the way ed forced himself to stay around his prey without attacking it impressed me so so so much. He always held her safety first. It was I don't know...... Dreamy? Unrealistic? Something that I think I'm craving for? Haha.

Or maybe I've always had this secret longing for vampires, werewolves or monsters.

I had a few manga series on humans dating werewolves or monsters or vampires, even demons! I guess that fuelled my gullible mind even more. Of course I know that they are impossible in real life but it thrills me. It's exciting and interesting.

Maybe I'll read new moon and eclipse now. I skipped the two and jumped to breaking dawn immediately when I saw the movie trailer for breaking dawn.

Or perhaps I will re-read twilight again. Their very first encounter. Just absolutely love that bit so much!

And by the way, Seth Clearwater -- one of the wolves sounds awfully cute! The way he thinks and the way he acts. Totally adorable!! Too bad he doesn't really have a big role, just a supporting character. It would be great if he had more involvement in the story towards the end. Guess he was too young for more things to happen to him or there weren't enough girls in the story for imprinting. Heh.

And yes, I am always attracted to younger men. What the hell is wrong with me? Hahaha! :D

This shall be my motto from now on.

Today I was channel surfing and caught the last part of Mind Your Money on CNA.

I missed the part where they were discussing what is the recommended percentage of your income you should save.

And.

Crap. I'm dipping into my so-called "Emergency Money". Bad!

I should have at least a year of my income of "Emergency Money" since I'm so probable to quitting. Which obviously I don't have.

And I'm thinking of this thing: "Hey. I want to go for fine dining too! But only ONCE a year. The rest of my income must be saved up."

I'll probably get a job soon I suppose?

Time to move my lazy ass.

If I could dream at all, it would be all about you.

You are my life now.

You said that you loved me.

I've been reading Twilight lately and OMG~~~~

Edward~~~~~~

Yes, he may be a "drama papa" but he's awfully romantic and sweet at times!

My imaginary Edward Cullen has a Korean boy look. My favourite kind of look. Brown hair and pretty boy look. Hahaha! :D

Now I'm moving on to New Moon but not as keen as I was on Twilight.

I preferred reading how they got to know each other and how they got together. It was their 邂逅 that captured me and made me go gaga enough to buy the entire series at a go and the movie DVDs.

And actually I watched all the 3 movies (Twilight, New Moon & Eclipse) before reading the books so it was like a spoiler.

To me, New Moon is all about Bella trying to "kill" herself to see hallucinations of Edward. Cause it would make her feel as if Edward had never left.

I'm more interested to read the last book, Breaking Dawn, to know why and how and when did Bella become a vampire. How did they manage to have children?

But then~~~~~

"Never judge a book by its movie." - J.W.Eagan

I don't want to skip 2 books. I guess I'll slowly read New Moon then Eclipse and finally Breaking Dawn.

I'm a milquetoast.

"Hello," said a quiet, musical voice.
I looked up, stunned that he was speaking to me. He was sitting as far away from me as the desk allowed, but his chair was angled toward me. His hair was dripping wet, disheveled \ even so, he looked like he'd just finished shooting a commercial for hair gel. His dazzling face was friendly, open, a slight smile on his flawless lips. But his eyes were careful.

When will I be able to write like that?