Friday, May 28, 2010

#183


I did it!

I ignored his sms..

Well.. Truth to be told.. I was actually feeling weak and wanted to reply.. But I told myself not to.. I forced myself to ignore.. And I did it!! I'm feeling proud of myself! =)

I don't need this kind of friend who won't even reply my sms-es when I ask him a question or answer me rudely.

What I need is sincerity in the friendship..

I can't feel it from him. Too bad.

Would you like a friend who is always blowing hot and cold? I doubt so. It makes me feel really insecure.. Like.. I'm so afraid that I would step on your toes.. This second, you're my one and only best friend in the world and the next second, I'm like your arch enemy.

I wouldn't want this kind of friendship.

Guess I will just smile and nod when I see him on Monday. I can't possibly ignore him if we meet face to face. That would be weird and it shows that I have bad upbringing.

~ 미셸♥려욱 ~ was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 3:56 PM

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

#182


he suddenly came up behind me and said "Hi Michelle!" Usually he would ignore me and just walk back to his seat..

is he feeling that the fish in his net is getting away so he's now throwing some bait?

i told him "Hi! I thought you went MIA?"

him: "No! YOU went MIA!"

me: "i'll tell you why next time.."

then he walked away..

then i ignored him all the time.. i refused to look at him..

even when our paths crossed..

when i was photocopying something.. i saw someone walking out from his area.. my instincts told me that it was him..

but i never looked up.. i looked at the machine.. i took the paper, stared at it as i was walking away.. when i walked back to my seat.. i saw that it was really him..

i dunno..

is this too obvious?

am i just a fish that is swimming away?

anyway he ignored me too..

argh.. whatever! cant be bothered anymore..

~ 미셸♥려욱 ~ was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 9:54 PM

Monday, May 17, 2010

#181


Perhaps..

It's time to move on..

I will be okay..

It's not a big deal..

Waiting is a form of training.. During the process of waiting, I'll get to know the person much better and I won't "invest" too heavily.. It's just like stocks.. Once you invest.. You can't bear to let it go even though it's burning your fingers cause you have already spent time and money on it..

I'll ignore it..

The feeling of wanting to contact him..

As time goes by, I'll forget about it..

I guess he is the same as the previous experience..

So.. I'm just good for "making use of" huh?

I'll never give my heart out easily anymore..

My heart will be given to my boyband idols from now on..

~ 미셸♥려욱 ~ was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 12:13 AM

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

#179


我知道他只是把我当猴子在耍。。

我一而再，再而三地告诉我自己不可以。。绝对不可以。。不能。。

可是我发现我已经渐渐开始越陷越深。。

就算我知道自己是被玩弄。。

我都没办法停止我自己的心。。

谁能救救我？

让我醒醒吧！

别再陷下去了！

~ 미셸♥려욱 ~ was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 7:40 PM

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

#178


He called me a pig and said i'm siao!!

idiot.. so what if i'm always sleepy!! so what if i'm always giving crappy answers and pretending to be enthu.. asshole.

and i suspect he gave my number away before asking me! some unknown number called me like a few minutes after he sms if he could give my number to one of his colleagues who wanted it..

is this like a scam or what?

i didnt pick up that call.

if this is my tao hua yun, it can jolly well wait till that open house.

and i was kinda feeling the rekindled flame.. cuz he was acting pretty much differently.. not so serious anymore.. oh god.. what was i thinking! i must have been blinded and stupid.

f those feelings. f off!

luckily last night i was feeling pissed off so i switched off my mobile. usually it's on 24/7 but yesterday was feeling very angry.. so i did something different..

i dunno why but i actually had this feeling that he might call..

and true enough.. he called twice and sms if i was asleep.

i'm no clown or entertainer for you when you can't sleep!

i'll rather be a clown and entertainer for someone else! -_-

~ 미셸♥려욱 ~ was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 8:20 AM

Sunday, May 02, 2010

#177


Some idiot told me that I have bad taste in men.

~ 미셸♥려욱 ~ was treasuring e memories wif euu @ 12:44 AM