Another month has passed and its passed the half semester mark... We've gotten back our mid-term test results and i have below average marks.
Imagine 15/20 marks, which was what i got, was the last in class. What a joke right? My class have 7 perfect 20/20 scores. To think i have studied so hard for the subject, seems like it has all gone to waste.
Good is simply not good enough, you have to be perfect.I dont know how to explain... but i'm just so demoralized to be at the bottom time and again. And i have been constantly putting in effort as well, sacrificing much of my time in books. Wasn't it enough? Do i need to put in more?
Am i stupid, my standard far too low for this place? Or my 'glory' past was just a faux? The data right in front of me now is crystal clear. There's no denying of the facts. I am at the bottom.
A friend of ours has decided to withdraw from school. Will i be forced to do that as well?
When the lack of technical knowledge comes to haunt you, when people starts telling me,
"At least I'm better than you, you wont be able to make it". When thrown into such a competitive place where people step on each other to make it to the top...
Will i be able to face and rise up to all of these challenges once again?
