Monday

It suddenly dawned on me that I've spent too much time looking back in regret and feeling remorseful that I forgot to appreciate the finer things in life. I forgot to look forward. Alas! If only I did, I would have noticed that there is actually a huge beautiful rainbow waiting for me in front. I hope it's not too late yet.

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No more 100%.. I gave you 100%.. I endured all the nonsense you gave me.. I chose to believe you.. I kept finding excuses for you.. I'm running out of excuses and patience.. I'm never going to give you 100% anymore.. I'm only going to give you 60% no, 40%. I can only blame myself for being gullible to keep trusting you even though I know I shouldn't trust you. Too many signs that tell me that I'm trusting the wrong person but I thought perhaps I was mistaken. And I've never seen anyone so lazy like you. If you say that you rank second, I dare say that nobody would claim that they rank first. Someday I'll fight back! Don't think that I'm a person you can step on forever! >=(

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I really hate you just like the way you hate me.


Tuesday

Suddenly I thought about Brata. I wondered how he's doing now.. I sent him a message in FB, wondered if he replied..

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I happened to catch this on CNA that in times of uncertainty, people tend to want to be together so that they will have a support to fall back on.

But.. Seems like it doesn't apply to me? LOL..

And I've resolved not to like anyone again until I've established my career. If I was able to do so for 5 years already, I don't see why I am unable to do so now.

Wednesday

A very special day for my very special someone but I think it was not a good day for him.. The woes of studying!! =(

I experienced the tremors of the earthquake at work!! This time it was definitely worse than the last time.. Much more violent.. When the building shook, I thought "What would happen if I died?" I know I shouldn't be so pessimistic but the tremors were really violent.. I won't know what would happen right?

Isn't there a saying that the first person you think about when you are going to die is the person you love the most? I didn't think about anyone.. My first thought was "OMG!! QUAKE!! HELP!!" After that then I started to worry about my parents.. What would happen to them if I died etc.. So I guess I can say that I love my parents the most and they are still my top priority? =)

Thursday

Not feeling well..

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Happy Children's Day!


Friday

Another very special day for another of my very special someone. He is still my mother's favourite after so many years. LOL! He's a very sweet person. I haven't really been in contact with him lately.. I know I'm bad.. Lol.. Oh oh oh! We still haven't go out for our lunch date yet!

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It started off badly at work and it ended off badly as well. =\

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Life is short! Don't be so calculative! When it's past, just forget it! Forgive and let go!

That's what I'm trying to convince myself but some people are really so damn bloody plastic and it's starting to really get on my nerves.. I really wonder how come they can keep up with their facade for so long.. Argh!!

Aiyah!! Whatever!! Forget it.. Forgive and let go!! Life is short.. Far too short to be wasted on plastics.. They take too much time to break down, they cause pollution and they give off poison gas when burned..

So......

Plastics are meant to be ignored!!

There are so many other things which are so much better and worthy of my time! =)

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What I really need is courage.. I wanted to talk to that cute guy at the coffee shop but.. I just couldn't bring myself to do it.. I'm a timid mouse!! I've spied on him for so many years and I'm still afraid to talk to him! =(

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I had supper with my darling. We met up at 9pm plus and chatted till 11pm plus I think. She's still as pretty as ever.. Very interesting.. Very humorous.. We had a heart to heart talk and I have to admit that she is right about some stuff.. Oh well.. It takes time.. =)

I'm looking forward to our next supper date or outing! =)


Saturday

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival!! I slept till noon, tired out my eyes and hand at cooking bird's nest and making Konnyaku jelly.

Sunday

We went to SAFTI for family day! It's nice.. Especially the SAFTI Tower! It's really windy at the top.. I like "The Sword of Honour"!! It's really very very cool..

AND..

I saw GIRLS in SAFTI.. FIT!~ =D

Currently I feel very sleepy cause we had to wake up very early for the visit.. *yawn*

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Happened to watch "The American Mall" on OKTO.. It's something like "High School Musical".. When I saw it, it was already somewhere near the ending.. The songs are quite nice..

Watch the video!

The American Mall, Survivor ~HQ~ Full Video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vf2VvWmj_FY


Survivor Lyrics

I just woke up
From a fractured Fairy Tale
I bought the dream but didn't read the small details
On which road
I should take
I thought I could see it
You led me astray
And know I feel cheated
I let you break my heart
And bleed it
I know it
But I finally learn that I hate to lose
Now there's something i've gotta prove

I'm a survivor
Screamin' loud and strong
I'm a survivor
That's right bring it on

I'm taking back the part I gave away
Yeah
And I'll never do it again
Unless it's an equal trade
Oh
And I open my heart
Like the fool I trusted
The light in the dark
Until you unplugged it
Love left a mark
But I rise above it
I know it

Every mistake that I ever made
Made me who I am today

I'm a survivor
Screamin' loud and strong
I'm a survivor
That's right bring it on

Princess opens up her eyes Without a kiss
That she won't forget
Because this good girl is pissed

Every mistake that I ever made
Made me who I am today

I'm a survivor
Screamin' loud and strong
I'm a survivor
That's right bring it on

I'm a survivor
Screamin' loud and strong
I'm a survivor
That's right bring it on

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The American Mall, Sorry's Not Enough, ~HQ~ Full Video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vvobx7kB544

Sorry's Not Enough Lyrics

I'm sorry can't save a heart
When it breaks and scattered in the wind
How can two words cover the hurt
The others been living in

Oh I never believed I'd ever need
Any more than I did before

When sorry's not enough
There's nowhere left to turn
Too much to forgive
Tell me where is the answer
How do you find the strength
The strength to let it go
We need to just to leave
When sorry's not enough

Love can fall hard
Leaving the scar that remembers
How bad it burns
We won't pretend where next time begins
'Cause it makes us live and learn

Although now I believe that I'm gonna need
A little more than I did before

Sorry's not enough
There's nowhere left to turn
Too much to forgive
Tell me where is the answer
How do you find the strength
The strength to let it go
We need to just to leave
When sorry's not enough

No there's no going back
And tomorrow is all we're gonna have
So we will have

Sorry's not enough
There's nowhere left to turn
Too much to forgive
Tell me where is the answer
How do you find the strength
The strength to let it go
We need to just to leave
Oh just to leave baby
Sorry's not enough

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