HIM #10

Today we didn't really have the chance to talk to each other..

We said Hi to each other..

Then I met him at the toilet passageway..

He asked me when was my lunch time.. i told him 1pm but i'm famished.. then he said okay.. but i guess he was a bit disappointed with my response? i was quite..... how to say.. i finished my piece and i turned into the toilet.. lol..

then after that we didnt meet each other..

until!! i was going for lunch.. actually i saw him carry his laptop up.. so i delayed a few seconds, telling a lot of people that i'm going for lunch..

and yes! i went out.. he came out too.. we met at the lift lobby..

he asked if i was going for lunch.. (obviously!)

i said ya.. then he asked where i was going.. then i said probably the market.. then he said.. oh.. it's very warm but it should be less crowded now..

then i asked him if he's going to his office.. he said that he was going for a meeting and tmr he had to stay overnight.. they are deploying a program at 10pm! WTH!

was thinking of lending him my fan.. cuz the office turns stuffy at 8pm.. the air con would be switched off..

then he asked me what time i'm going home..

i told him 645.. i couldnt wake up today.. then i asked him what about you?

he told me.. should be same time as me.. then he gave me a knowing smile..

was that like a hint that he want to go home together?

he nv said it out so i also wont wait.. that's like sending myself to his doorstep.. that's what i told myself.. but in my heart.. i knew i was waiting desperately..

when i came back from lunch.. did scanning.. he came back..

he said hi to me.. asked me where did i go for lunch.. what did i eat.. i went to the market and it was very warm and i cant stand the heat.. i told him i had a craving for duck noodles so i ate that.. then he told me.. next time he will try it too.. then he smiled at me and walked away..

after that.. we didnt have any interaction..

then when i did scanning.. someone came from behind and anyhow hit my keyboard.. then i saw him walking away smiling.. then i was like "hey~~~~! haha.."

one of my colleague saw.. then she asked me.. "wah.. so happy ah?"

crappy are we like becoming so obvious?

then i think he went for meeting? cuz i spied at his desk and i didnt see him.. i saw him come back at 6plus... then i was thinking.. are we going home together? really?

i looked over but he didnt look at me...

then my colleague told me that when she was keeping her stuff, she saw him keep looking at my direction..

then why when i looked at his direction i didnt see that?

when it was nearing 645.. i was very nervous.. i told myself.. since he didnt want to ask for my contact, i should just leave.. let him know the feeling that "aish! i should have gotten her contact so we can meet.."

but i know i was anticipating.. waiting.. yearning..

but i decided i had to show that i am no easy girl who will deliver myself to his doorstep..

as i was grabbing my bag, i saw him walking to the toilet.. then he looked at me.. smiled and waved and mouthed "bye!"

i waved and said bye too..

i had this strange feeling..

that he had intentionally walked to the toilet at the time.. just to show me that he is still around.. too bad i didnt walk up to him to chat.. but then again! if i walked up to chat.. it shows that i am so desperate for him! which is like.. NO WAY!

well.........................

he's of a completely different level than me.. i'm a sure loser!!

just go with the flow now.. i guess..

two can play this waiting game!!

just that..

i'm seriously a goner.. i am really smitten..

When he's in the room, I can't stop myself from looking at his direction. My heart starts to beat very fast and I become so nervous that I find it very difficult to breathe. When he's not at his seat, my eyes would scan around for him.

I can't do my work properly.. it's affecting me.. stupid me.. i should never do this.. i shouldnt have let him into my heart..

i should start ignoring his presence and concentrate on my work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

f lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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