HIM #13

am i really such a fickle bitch?

he sms-ed me good morning today..

we went out together today.. actually before we went out was kinda annoyed? i mean i want to wear what i like.. was he challenging me?! i was seriously pissed..

never mind that.. i felt super annoyed and reluctant to go out.. haha.. in the end i did..

i didnt wear t shirt and shorts.. thank god.. cuz nobody in singapore art museum actually wore that.. lol..

i reached early and waited for him for some time..

we went to singapore art museum.. looked around.. he really liked art.. for me i'm alright with it..

then we reached an exhibition that was really empty and quiet.. we sat down and we kinda chatted? and i dunno what made me tell him personal stuff about my family.. hello?! i dun really know this guy!!

i mean perhaps cuz he was such a deep thinker.. the way he posed his questions made me share naturally..

i told him to stop being so formal.. but he said how to define formal? ok.. it's his character.. he has good upbringing.. very polite.. got manners.. he liked to call a person by his name and he likes ppl to call him by his name too.. weird eh.. but i guess that's just manners..

we talked a lot..

then he asked me about my thoughts of some art pieces.. i dun really know how to appreciate art lah..

he once wanted to be a curator in a museum.. wtf.. that was my ambition too! lol..

he doesnt scold vulgarities.. he said that's not the kinda person he wants to be.. he wanted to be treated like an adult blah blah..

after museum we went to a hawker centre to eat..

ya he also said that i'm hard to please! i told him i dun like soya bean milk blah blah.. lol..

then we went to meet his colleague.. pass something to her.. then we went to the library.. borrowed some books.. he's very interested in different religions.. for me i dun really care.. so when he asked me stuff i was like stunned.. and i told him.. ah.. you are giving me a headache.. lol..

after library.. we went to mac but no seats.. so we walked back to my estate? then we started chatting again..

throughout our interaction the whole day, i guess.. it would be best that we just remain as frenz.. i dunno what the future holds but ya..

i dun mean that he's not good.. he's very sophisticated, refined, learned, polite, artistic and gentlemanly but i just feel that.. he's not what i'm looking for.. i got commitment phobia la.. confirmed!

every time when there's a door.. he would open it and hold it for me.. i mean it's great but subsequently i was kinda irked.. for me cuz i guess my character is somehow boyish.. so.. i dun really mind such details..

in the end i told him dun need to hold it.. it like super formal to me.. like so distant.. not familiar.. he said that he does it to all female population.. he believe that is the right way a guy should behave..

oh he said that in my company, the one that looked friendliest was me.. dun bullshit sia!! everyone always commented that i am look unfriendly, dao, arrogant, hao lian etc..

he said that every time he smiled at me i would smile back but the rest of the ppl in my dept nv smile at him when he smile at them..

bullshit lah! lol.. they tell me that he walk with his head high.. who to believe! lol..

actually i smiled to him cuz i was attracted to him.. HAHAHAHA!! no but it is in me that if you smile at me first then i smile back. talk to me first then i answer..

he walked me home.. to my lift actually.. that's not too bad..

there's something called love at first sight but it kinda dies after you get to know the person better..

he doesnt like fat ppl.. biased.. f him.. what's wrong with fat ppl! rawr!! =\

fire and sparks died out.

however, i think i was sending wrong signals?

when we crossed the road, i grabbed his arm.. i scared of being knocked down.. he said he was a PROFESSIONAL JAYWALKER! hello?!~ i am not! and i have so many unfulfilled dreams! i havent seen my korean idols in real life, not forgetting my "i want to be an officer's wife" dream!!

when we in a crowd.. i held onto his shirt when i was walking behind him.. i hate crowds! i got phobia when in crowds..

when we were climbing this steep slope to go mac, i grabbed his arm too cuz it was too steep.. i wearing a super short dress can.. my flats were slippery.. he not really gentlemanly actually.. if he really was.. he would have offered his hand out to me.. but he didnt.. sucks.. what a great pretender.. =\

DIE.. i sending wrong signals right?

it was just my natural reaction i mean i'll do it to anyone who is near me.. oh no.. i hope he dun get the wrong idea..

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