I have been too busy to update..
No, that's a lie.
I haven't got a chance to use the computer much 'cause my sister got hooked on this Korean drama called "You're Beautiful".
So currently I'm using my brother's antique damn freaking slow laptop which would take half an hour to start up to blog.
I feel more lost than ever.
My uncle told me to continue my degree studies quickly if I have the intention of furthering my studies.
I don't know what to study. I don't have any interest in any of the courses!
But I know I have to study something. I have to upgrade myself.
I should try to 振作起来！
I have to.. I have been living aimlessly for years already..
My greatest setback is being too lazy.
Just because of this point -- LAZY, I've missed out a great deal of stuff.
I'm so lazy that I buy novels, self help books and DVDs but I never sat down to read or watch them..
Where do I begin?
Where should I begin?
I have this feeling.. This strong feeling that he only looks for me when he has something to show off.
Last week he asked if I wanted to go home together.
He didn't really ask.. He just asked what time I'm going home.. I said 6.30pm and I asked him what time he's going home. He told me anytime.
Oh is that a hint that you want me to ask you if you wanted to go home together with me? I refuse to ask.
In the end I sms-ed him that I was leaving. Bye!
He replied with a single word bye.
I tried to be nice and told him to go home earlier and not stay till very late.
He told me that actually he's leaving now.
Is that another hint to let me tell him want to go home together?
I still didn't ask.
The next day.. He asked me what time I'm going home. I said soon after I receive a fax back. I asked him what time he was leaving.
He said now. wait for you downstairs?
I told him if he was in a hurry he can leave first.
*due to bad experience the last time we went home together. i didnt reply him and he was kinda mean and rude. he asked me to go home together i said ok but i had some last min work to finish.. i told him i'll be late.. he said ok.. then he sms me to tell him when i'm downstairs.. i didnt reply cause i was gonna update my bank book.. then i received another sms from him.. he said.. i'm going down now. if i dont see you, i'm leaving.what the hell.. if you arent keen to wait then why did you even ask me to go home together?!i was actually downstairs already! i was a bit tempted to just walk off and not wait when i read that sms.. i have my pride too okay.but i didnt leave.. so stupid of me.. but when he came down, i just said why are you so impatient! he said i sms-ed you a thousand times! i was irritated so i replied with so?i'm GL but i'm lovin' it! haha!actually he sms-ed me a lot of times.. but i didn't want to reply.. he asked me if i knew the girl who went into the toilet a few seconds before me. she's very cute.when i didnt reply, he questioned me why i nv reply his sms and glared at me whenever he walked past.. even glaring at me while talking to his colleague!! so wtf..i told him i didnt receive his sms.. then he sms me the exact same sms again.. then even another sms that asked me if i received his sms.. i told him i dunno the girl..anyway when we went home, we were quiet throughout the journey and he kept yawning.. which i find it totally rude. it shows that he is very bored with me ok. then wtf i also dun give a f care anymore. i started to sms my frenz what time to meet etc. from the corner of my eye i could see him shoulder-surfing.. haha!that was the start of bad experience!*anyway continue the story.
he asked if i was going down now..
i replied ya
cause i had this feeling he got something to tell me.
then he said ok. waiting
he was downstairs reading a book..
then we went home together..
he told me he already know the girl's name etc.. yes, he introduced himself to the girl already.. pls lah.. that girl is not cute at all! -_-
got another better girl lo! i dun mean me! there's another pretty girl! but she's attached. haha!
then on the train he seemed so bored so i told him he can read his book. he aid he wont it's rude cuz when you ask someone to go home together means you ask for the person's company but then you ignore the person. it's wrong blah blah.. zzz!
then he told me got a cute girl on the train blah blah.. i told him.. if i continue to look at more girls i'm going to turn into a lesbian. he didn't get the hint which was obviously telling him to shut it and dont tell me anymore about looking at girls.
he asked if i was previously a lesbian.. wtf! pretending only!! how can you not get my obvious hint?!
i said NO! then he asked when was my birthday, how many boyfriends i had before. i said my birthday is a secret and i had 0 boyfriends before. he looked kinda shocked. then i told him i think it's ok not to have a boyfriend before. i havent met anyone that made me want to what you know? then he quickly answered ya, i understand, i have frenz my age who never had boyfriends before too. fyi he's 30 already!!
he kept talking about something girls related.. i told him i dont notice girls. if he asked me about guys i would know. then i told him oh there's this girl who i noticed!
she has shoulder length hair but i've never seen her in skirt before. she's always in pants. but she has this very cool aura around her. she gave me a very cool feeling.
he asked what about me? do i give you a cool feeling?
then i replied between you and her? erm.. and shook my head..
then he said.. ok.. then i'll give a you a hot feeling then.
i didnt know how to answer and i just laughed my way through.
trying to show off and flirt with me for what.. i'm obviously not your type?
that day i wore my usual one and only nice dress to work but! i wore my new heels which i guess at least 3 inches high?
i got a lot of positive feedback..
my colleagues told me i looked more lady and demure and gentle and nice.. i should wear like this more often blah blah..
even him.. he sms me that i looked nice..
so i should and must go do some shopping for the sake of my future huh? lol..
but my right side of the body feeling numb.. cui liao.. the pain is spreading from my right heel to my entire right side..
