I made an appointment with my Prof today. I wanted to see how badly I have done in the final paper... and also to see the solution to the questions. Trust me when I say that the solution is not important anymore, I was just trying to protray the image of a remorseful student in front of the prof. Just the thought of me failing and needing to repeat this module again hit me like a searing bullet... The pain lingers.

NUS policy states that if a student wants to review an exam paper, he has to pay an admin fee of $10 and submit the application personally to the faculty for processing. Personally, I didnt want to go through all this. That will mean taking 2 days off from work - 1 for submitting the application and 1 for reviewing. The prof also suggests that I dont do that, as I probably have nothing in my paper worth checking. First time a mentor has criticized my work so crudely. I felt so worthless.

Our appointment was at 11am. I reached early at about 10.45am. As I stood outside his office, I could hear another student inside, discussing about the exam questions. I waited for 11am. Who knew that their discussion will stretch past 11am? I waited till 11.45am before going in.. So much for being early. I nearly left after waiting for an hour. 5 more mins and I would have left.

Despite the long wait, he surprised me with my script... So I get to save both my time and money. He explained to me my erred questions 1 by 1. I was heartbroken to see my pathetic marks - 30/100. I nearly broke down in front of him, but I think prof could tell from my downcast face, that I was extremely disappointed. I didnt absorb much of his explanations, my mind was fighting to come to terms with the marks on the paper.

I hate being looked down upon, being branded as third grade. Sadly, that is the truth for this subject.

This is another 1 of the saddest day of my life.