Happy new year dear readers, if there's any.. Lol..

It's a brand new year and it smells of a brand new start!! I can't wait to spend my 2010!!

Looking back now, 2009 was a year of laughter and tears..

I was still coping alright during the first quarter of the year..

I felt so alone during the second quarter of the year..

I laughed a lot and looked forward to everyday during the third quarter of the year..

I cried more than I laughed, fell really sick and depressed during the last quarter of the year..

I got increasingly restless, angry, irritated and frustrated with everything. I was not happy. As a matter of fact, I am still not feeling happy right now. I do not know what is wrong or where the problem lies.

I'm not sure if anyone noticed but I felt that I was building much more stronger invisible walls and I've shut the door to my heart unknowingly. All I am certain that there are so many locks and I am not sure if there would be any key to unlock all of them..

Unless!! You are this particular oh-so-very-special-magical key that I will definitely welcome you with my arms wide open else I think it would be a mission impossible for anyone.. Haha!

I read this off someone's newspaper..

生活是一面镜子，你笑，它也笑。。
Life is a mirror, when you smile, it smiles too..

Perhaps this really has some truth to it..

Currently I feel so rotten thus my life is getting more and more rotten.. I've seemed to have stopped smiling lately.. Cause I've gotten a lot of comments like "Why aren't you smiling?" "Come one, smile!" "Why are you looking so sad?" "Be happy!".. So I guess my emotions are shown on my face more often than I realise..

What should I do?

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